It Feels Like Time to Ramble

Here it is, just the second day of January, and I have already grown weary of winter. Of the cold, the ice on my driveway and in my street. I know, we’ve had a very easy winter thus far, and much of the country has suffered, truly suffered, with the weather, while we have been spared. Still, that does not stop me for longing for warmer climes, and maybe an ocean beach where I can sink my toes into the sand as I walk my furry girl, loving the sunshine and the sound of the waves lapping on the shoreline.

The furnace comes on frequently, and my mind’s eye can see the dial on the meter whirring frantically, the dollar signs growing with each whir. Even if “smart” meters do not have dials that whir. Do they? I’ll have to look, next time I build up the courage to walk out into that cold. There are those who protested the smart meter installations – the “big brother is watching” people. To me, it’s, just get over it. Big brother is watching. There are many things in our lives that are tracking our movements. Does it really matter? Not to me. My movements are not of any interest whatsoever. Maybe Alexa is listening when I speak, even if I do not speak her name. Maybe your smart TV is watching you. Big deal. Just. Big deal.

What is a big deal – to me – is a government that talks about spending 5 billion dollars to begin a wall that is stupid. Other countries have built walls. They have not resolved the issues, because the issues are something that cannot be resolved by closing yourself in and others out. It frustrates me because if I were to create a record deficit in my budget, no one would be lending me money to build a wall. Or a fence. Or anything else. And that 5 billion would only be the beginning.

I have concluded – I wanted to say learned, but I’m not sure that it’s really learned, or that it would work for anyone else – I have concluded that in many cases, simple is better. After many years of trying many many different magic creams to keep wrinkles at bay, or erase those that snuck through that wall, the wrinkles came anyway and so I shall use a simple, inexpensive body cream to soften my skin and allow me to smile without my face cracking. I shall use more simple ingredients for cleaning. Things like vinegar, baking soda, alcohol, all work quite well and cost far less than the latest, most improved, cleaning agent. I will eat less processed food, and prepare more of my food and that for my furry girl from scratch. Because. I can. I have the liberty of time to do that. That’s a benefit of getting older. I have time. Time to breathe. Time for quiet consideration. Time to check facts. Time to nap. Time to indulge myself in crafts, in painting, in knitting, in reading. Such is my blessing.

People are starting to use words for the year. I guess that’s replacing resolutions, which are never kept anyway. I never have picked a word, but I think this year my word will be Gratitude. Gratitude to recognize that I really do have enough, and I really am blessed. Another of my blessings is being able to sit here in my morning chair, with squirrels and birds outside enjoying the seed I have put out for them. I can see the blue skies, the sunshine, the clouds, the raindrops, the snowflakes. I have space. I have warmth. I have food. I have love.

What more could one ask?

About Carol

I'm me - nothing unusual, just me. Widowed, 2 grown children who are my best friends, 1 dog, retired, loving being retired. I am woman, I am strong.
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13 Responses to It Feels Like Time to Ramble

  1. Sadje says:

    Appreciating what we have not only lifts our spirits but also drives away the negativity.

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  2. Bee Halton says:

    Amen!!!! 🙋🍀

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  3. dawnkinster says:

    I think you are very lucky to have recognized how good life is, regardless of our budgets or our politics. I hope you get to visit that beach at least once this winter, because winter is far from over.

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  4. leendadll says:

    Oh, I could ask for things forever. I’d never get them, but I enjoy asking (my top 3 are: a 6-carat flawless natural red diamond [doesn’t exist]; a million dollars; sexy new boyfriend).

    No snow here… yet. Overnight temps are still holding in the mid-40s. Toes in the ocean would actually feel warm (I think the current water temp is mid-50s)!!

    I hope you find gratitude everywhere, every day, in 2019!

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  5. It feels good to be content. ☺️

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  6. loisajay says:

    Stopping to count our blessings–we need to do that so much more.

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  7. Jay says:

    I love your attitude, Carol – you’re right, of course. We do have more time to think, to breathe, to indulge our hobbies, as we grow older, and that is a blessing.
    This year, for me and for many, many others, is the Year of the Fly. I wrote a post about it. And that mentions two things I wouldn’t have had time for when I was younger: blogging, and entomology.

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  8. Joanne says:

    Growing older is a blessing indeed, Carol, and I believe the wisdom of our years allows us to appreciate what we have in our lives. Gratitude is a word I try to focus on every day of every year. Even when we face trials in our lives, we can be grateful for the lessons we have learned from the difficult times.
    Happy New Year to you, dear friend. xx

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  9. Lisa says:

    I used to think I’d grow old gracefully….but am finding I tend to fight it tooth and nail. I also look for those magic creams, but have been unsuccessful in my quest. I try and make meals primarily out of whole foods. With Entrepreneur’s cancer, I try and steer clear of preservatives and chemicals when possible. I will disagree with you on the Big Brother thing. It bothers me that “someone” would be watching or listening to me. Unless I’m harming someone else, there is no reason for anyone to know what I’m saying/doing unless I choose to include them. I understand data mining on the Internet, and I don’t expect any level of privacy online. I do expect it in my home. The only thing I can say about the wall is what we have now in the way of border security is not working well. I don’t think it’s a matter of being anti-immigration. It’s an issue of being anti-illegal immigration. One thing for sure….our government wastes money on all sorts of programs and have done so for decades. That said, I do wish you a wonderful year filled with gratitude and enough. 🙂

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    • Carol says:

      It has taken me a lot of years to stop fighting the aging in appearance – and I still have moments of becoming irritated with it. I’m a lot older than you, so you’ve got time. I think a lot of this has to do with society worshipping youth and superficial beauty – we have been taught this is important. As to privacy, I get what you’re saying, and I don’t disagree. I think for me it’s just a battle I choose not to let upset me anymore – the older I get the more I feel “it is what it is”. As to illegal immigration, from what I read and hear on the news it’s much lower now than it’s been for years, and our government hugely distorts the truth on that matter. I just think that, like everything else, we go into the overkill mode when something becomes a “thing”.
      I wish you too enough of everything, more good news with Entrepreneur’s health, and great times with all your girls.


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