There are these feelings, these words, clamoring to be let loose despite the fact that I have been trying to ignore them. I’m giving in now – because this is my way of uncluttering my mind, setting things down in front of me to review, to gain a perspective and some balance.

Division seems to be what this time period is going to be remembered for. Division that is spreading, creeping into too many lives I think. Or maybe I just feel that way because it’s crept into my life, into my mind set. Politically, philosophically, I find myself standing alone. My closest friends, my more casual friends, all seem to have positions completely the opposite of mine. I am trying to learn to just keep quiet, but words too often fly out of my mouth, completely unintended. I know I am alienating people, and I know they are alienating me.

I don’t understand – and I am not saying my position is right – those who call themselves Christians but still voted for DT – a man whose caliber of behavior was well known before time to vote. For me if Hillary was not an option for voters who claimed not to like DT, voting for no one would have been preferable.

I don’t understand people who feel it’s necessary to have a gun readily available for protection. I have a 22 rifle, put away but there if some sort of emergency came up, although I doubt very much I could actually shoot a human being with it. I don’t understand people who feel it’s necessary to carry a gun with them at all times. I don’t understand, but I don’t really have a problem with it – for others. Not for me, but if that is your choice, so be it.

I really don’t understand those who feel assault/military style, high velocity, high capacity rifles should be readily available. I know there are those who like them for recreation, but I don’t understand. I don’t understand why regulations are so abhorrent to gun people – we need to pass tests to drive cars, to be hired for a job, to vote – so why shouldn’t we have to pass tests for gun ownership? And if we can’t buy a tank as our mode of operation, why should be need assault/military style rifles? Really, we don’t “need” everything we think we want.

I don’t understand why gun people feel that if there are any tightening of regulations or prohibitions of type of weapons permitted, it means that ultimately they will lose their right to have guns. If you distrust your government to that degree, wouldn’t it make sense to do something about the government? Like maybe think hard and look hard and try to see clearly before you cast votes. Open your minds and check facts about both sides first?

Yes, I know there is the 2nd amendment. But I also know that amendment was drawn during a time when there was no organized militia and when in the event of an armed conflict, all men could be called in for service. I know that amendment was drawn before we had automatic and semi-automatic guns and I wonder if our forefathers would look at it as being a proper amendment now.

I hate division, but I am learning to be at peace with standing alone. I am learning to be at peace with spending most of my time at home with my furry girl, doing quiet things that I like to do. Although I am sad with the loss of the feeling of closeness. And hoping this too shall pass.

Standing Alone:

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  1. Ally Bean says:

    You’ve written sad, but honest thoughts here. I live in an politically conservative region, too. I would answer your hypothetical questions in one word: FEAR! Hillary represented *oh no a girl* change, guns protect you from those scary “other” people, licensing means someone might not pass the test. And on and on the fear goes. I don’t think there’s any way to avoid these people, but I am getting better at just looking right through them with a blank stare when they start skipping down their fear-filled primrose path.

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  2. Carol — I applaud that you are “learning to be at peace with standing alone.”

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  3. leendadll says:

    I understand the feeling. Maybe that’s why I’m at peace with being out of work – less personal drama.

    I wish I could snag a pic of my new “standing alone” bird… it’s a GORGEOUS yellow/orange…finch?? Sparrow? I dunno. It’s new and I can’t ID it. There used to be a yellow finch with the charm (just looked that up) of finches that stop by several times a day but this one is solo.

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    • leendadll says:

      ps: had to go by the car dealership today and was thinking of you because that’s where I saw the overpriced alcohol/yupo. I wanted to get a pic of the redonk overpriced pastel of a cat (it was REALLY bad) but they’ve swapped out all the artwork and everything they had now was actually really good… but still overpriced (the 2’x3′ painting of a koi was $15k).

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    • Carol says:

      Any black markings on your standing alone bird? Wing bars? Finch type beak?

      Sent from my iPad



  4. Gobblefunkist says:

    You aren’t alone, Carol. You have us with you through every sentiment you share.
    I saw the movie “Three bill boards” recently, and wanted to curl up, not just at the premise of the movie (I have a teenage daughter myself), but also at the conservative society that it showed.
    Life is getting more and more complicated, Carol, all over the world.

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  5. dawnkinster says:

    You are definitely not alone. A couple of weeks ago, when I was about 3 weeks into my stay here in AL, I told my husband that I thought I was the only liberal down here. Both neighbors, who are very nice, are definitely DT supports. As are 2 neighbors further up the road. All 4 sets of people would do anything for me if I needed something, but I know they think differently than me about most issues. So I just smile and keep quiet. And I told him it was similar for me up in Michigan, most everyone I know, friends and neighbors, are all conservative and most likely DT supporters. Where IS it that liberals go to live in places of similar feelings? He said maybe Oregon..but you’re bursting my bubble about that too.

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    • Carol says:

      Except most of the people I’m talking about are California transplants, or at least transplants. I also suspect the area where I live is more conservative than many other parts of the state. I removed one person yesterday from my blog followers – I don’t think she’s been reading my posts lately anyway – and I unfollowed one friend on Facebook, because I think in the interest of preserving friendships it best if I don’t expose them to my opinions, and I don’t want to hear about theirs. Like you said – just keep quiet on the home front. Sad.

      Sent from my iPad



    • lisakunk says:

      Neither of you are alone. I keep quiet most of the time as well. getting into a debate would get me nowhere. Most of my very conservative friends who used to boast are less boastful now. Hmmmm I wonder why. So we just don’t discuss politics. It’s better that way. I’m just waiting to see the next thing that rolls right off. Something is bound to stick eventually. It’s like cholesterol. It can only build up so much before the artery clogs and there’s an event.

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  6. lisakunk says:

    I’m enjoying your art.


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