It’s been awhile since I’ve ranted or wept or completely given in to my feelings on this blog. Today, I feel a need to do all of those things.

Recent news has my stomach churning, my head spinning, my heart breaking. We’ve lost 17 more kids – this time, those kids are of the age and the education level to speak out, to demand change. And there are the factions – the faction that is calling these kids “crisis actors” and other demeaning titles make my heart weep. Make me feel hopelessness. We tear at each other, like wolves with a new kill. At least the wolves do it for survival – we seem to not really have a reason. Or the ability to reason.

Yes, I know I’m making blanket statements, and that is never a good thing. There are those who use their brains to think logically, reasonably, that listen to opposing arguments calmly, considering the choices. And then there are the rest. And I might fit into “the rest”, I don’t know. I only know that I don’t know how anyone can really disagree with the concept of having a strict, universal background check before a gun can be purchased. If people have to wait a few days from the time of application to the time of getting the gun, so be it. What’s the big deal?

I don’t know how anyone can really claim a “need” for an assault type rifle – and I use this term admittedly without a clear concept of what an assault type rifle is. For which some will criticize me. Sorry about that. To me, an assault type rifle is one that allows someone to repeatedly fire many rounds in just a few seconds. Sportsmen, that is not sporting. I would think the thrill of the hunt would be the ability to “win” on relatively even terms.

I don’t hear demands from anyone to ban all guns, although those who support the NRA and defend their right to have guns seem to think that’s what’s happening. I would not care if they did, but I know many would be opposed to that. Fine – but that’s not what I’m hearing is on the table right now. I had a long Facebook conversation yesterday with a man who I assume is a gun proponent – but there was no progress made in that conversation. He obviously felt I wasn’t hearing him and I know he wasn’t hearing me. It makes me sad. Our minds are made up, don’t bother me with facts.

Then there is the New York State GOP Congresswoman who states that most mass murderers turn out to be Democrats. You will excuse me, but what the hell has political party got to do with anything at all here?

We are sick. We are a sick society and we need help. And it makes me so sad. It makes the world so bleak. What will it take to make us caring humans again? Will it take a colossal disaster? I hope not. I hope not.

On another topic, I have been playing with acrylic paints now because the alcohol inks were having an adverse affect on my system it seems. And I have been trying to learn to use palette knives with these paints. It’s an adventure. Here are two that I’ve done recently – and the darkness of these paintings might be symbolic, I’m not sure.

Snowy Night in the City:

Snowy Mountains:


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I'm me - nothing unusual, just me. Widowed, 2 grown children who are my best friends, 1 dog, retired, loving being retired. I am woman, I am strong.
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19 Responses to Hopelessness

  1. Embeecee says:

    Powerful words, beautiful art. Thanks for sharing this with us. I too have had long conversations with people who don’t/won’t see my side. Who make light or are downright mean to those of us who rely on prayer to cope with an increasingly ugly world without any hope. I’m heart sick. Soul sick. It seems that the light has gone out for humanity..so what’s left but for the world to end itself. I’m listening to your words and I hear you.

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  2. Robin says:

    Your paintings are beautiful, and your words… I agree with Embeecee. Your words are powerful.


  3. Donnalee says:

    I like the paintings and wish you the best.


  4. dawnkinster says:

    I can’t hit like because you are so profoundly sad. Yet I like the art and I like what you’re saying. So I am torn. I too don’t hear anyone saying ban all guns. Just make it harder to get a gun, and try to do a better job of screening out people that shouldn’t have one. And that there’s no reason anyone needs a gun that shoots so many rounds so quickly.

    And the member of Congress that states most mass shooters are Democrats? Hopefully she isn’t re-elected next time. Because obviously she’s got no brain or conscious to speak of.

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  5. leendadll says:

    I saw that some school is now arming their security guards with AR-15 assault rifles. All I can think is “this is how you become a militarized society”… ease in the weapons under the guise of defense with no laws or debate or anything. Next they’ll appear at any mass event… concerts and the like… and then everywhere. It’s F’d up.

    Your acrylics are fantastic. I esp love the Night one!

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    • Carol says:

      Just what we need, more guns in the schools. I think assault rifles are a whole lot too much, since mass shooters don’t seem to come in large groups. Let’s take out some more kids when we go after the shooter. What the heck!
      Thank you for the nice words about my paintings.


  6. loisajay says:

    I was happy (is that the right word) to hear that teachers want no part of coming to school armed. What has become of us, Carol?I agree with what you say. It feels like a hopeless situation and there does not seem to be any agree (or anything near an agreement) on a solution. I feel so sorry for all the kids. This is not what they signed up for.

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  7. Looking at the USA from outside, I can only wonder at some of the things being said – arming teachers? Good grief. That is not the solution. Makes the rest of the world shake their heads in disbelief.

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  8. Sandra Sparks says:

    Wow! That first painting is powerful

    Sent from my iPhone


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  9. Your pictures are lovely even though I can see your sadness when you made them. It is a crazy world we live in today where people can do such terrible things and other people utter such a lot of ridiculous nonsense about it. Armed teachers, more guns in schools and the person who claimed that schools being gun free zones shows that banning firearms doesn’t work. As for the idiot that suggests that mass murderers are usually Democrats. Well I feel like I’d like to do a Homer Simpson and try to strangle the lot of them.You are not alone though, many people feel the same as you and sooner or later if they persist things can still get better.

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  10. I particularly like SNOWY NIGHT IN THE CITY. It’s captivating.


  11. Ally Bean says:

    “I don’t know how anyone can really claim a ‘need’ for an assault type rifle”

    This is what I come back to time and time again. I agree that we’re living in a sick society, but I am at a loss as to how to make any significant impact among those people who “need” an assault rifle. They make no sense, and seem incapable of stepping beyond their own fear. It’s baffling and disheartening.


  12. jay53 says:

    I think I’ve said all I can say on the subject of America’s love/hate relationship with guns and the disasters that overtake you on a regular basis. I know I have said all I can say on the subject of arming teachers – and there are many, more experienced, people who have said it better. All I can add is that it makes me, too, profoundly sad to see a once-great country like America sink so low and become so fragmented.

    Your acrylics are beautiful. I think I like them better than the alcohol inks! The first one is particularly lovely.

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  13. Lisa says:

    There are so many layers to the current events of late. I cannot in good conscious advocate anyone owning an AR-15 rifle except the military. I think background checks and waiting periods are good things. I also believe if someone is hell bent on shooting a lot of people, they will find a gun, whether it’s legal or not. Is it a mental health issue. Yes, in some cases. Is it a heart issue? Most definitely, always. And who do we blame for that? We live in a culture that doesn’t really value human life or any real semblance of morality outside of furthering a political agenda. Just look at the video games, TV shows and movies that are popular. Civil discourse and tolerance of anyone who doesn’t fit with the popular agenda of the day has all but disappeared. A friend of mine is a principal at a parochial school. He has a conceal and carry license and is prepared to protect students in case of a horrid situation like we’ve seen. What is the answer? What should the protocol be when someone open fires in a ‘gun-free” zone? Time is of the essence. It is sad the world has come to this. When someone can use a gun, car, plane etc. as a terrorist weapon, too much has gone very wrong.

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