Have I told you I’m wishing my life away, sitting here wishing winter away? Silly, isn’t it? Yesterday, when the rain had fallen and temperatures had risen and the snow was turning to slush, making driving in it an interesting adventure, I thought I was winning. I thought I was defeating the yearning, and I hoped I would waken this morning to the green, green grass of home. Yes, it’s true – sometimes I suffer from delusions. Or you could call it having hope.
What did I wake up to this morning? Gray skies, with a momentary glimpse of bright color as the sun rose over the hill. I checked the weather forecast, as I do each morning, and what did it say? It did not say blue skies, sandy beaches, ocean waves. It did not even say blue skies. It said – are you ready? – it said inches of snow are to fall upon us today. It said there is a winter weather advisory. It said words I did not want to hear.
So my dreams of sun, sand, warmth, and ocean waves will remain just that. Dreams. But dreams are good and my life is good and I really should not complain. I really do have enough. I just need to remember that when the dreams of sun, sand, warmth and ocean waves wash over me.
The sun, sand, warmth, and ocean waves will be there later in the year, when it is really spring or summer. When mountain roads are clear again, and it is time for Girls’ Week at the coast.
Have I told you lately that in the meantime – this life is enough? I will dream, but I will know I have enough. And there are those pictures of warmth, sun, sand, and ocean waves to drool over. Yep. But still, have I told you lately that I am over winter?