And the reason is that husband is in hospital. Thursday morning his pain became so acute that we called the ambulance. His heart rate was too high so they transported him to ER, and from there he was admitted to the hospital. Yesterday we met with the doctor, the Palliative Care nurse and Hospice. Their goal (after consulting with his oncologist) is to find the medications that will handle his pain and make him more comfortable. I agree. It’s a direction I’ve been wanting to go for a few months now. It will take some convincing to get him to agree to hospice because Medicare allows either hospice or treatments. The point now is to change the direction of the hope and the fight – from “find and fix” to a reasonable quality of life for whatever time is left. It cannot be fixed. Treatments are no longer controlling the spread of the cancer. It is time to find comfort. That will be enough.
I am doing fine. I have Kat with me, Gep soon to follow and the support of my very good friends here as well as the support of my bloggy friends, I know. Life is rarely that fairy tale version we carry in our heads growing up, but life is enough.
I have a few photos taken a few days ago of some of my birdie visitors which I want to share. Happy spots in the day, you know.