Today the Skies Cry, I Smile

I have to thank all of you for your comments, your support, your friendship. It always amazes me, that warmth of the bloggy world. It’s something you know is there with family and real-world friends, but that there is so much love in the blog world is astonishing! A wonderful reality check in this world where sometimes, when we watch the news and hear of the tragic events occurring, we wonder if all of the good is gone.

Writing is my release. I have always done this – I just have not always had that digital “publish” button to push and share those words. Yesterday was not good – in an attempt to deal with my feelings – and because the grass was becoming a jungle – I had gone out to mow the front lawn. While I was mowing in circles, my brain was also racing – in circles, straight lines, many directions. The words were pouring through it and I needed to get them down. On paper, albeit digital paper. So I took a break, came in for a cup of tea and poured my heart out on the iPad. Then shared with all who cared to read. Your responses were, as I said, stunning and heartwarming.

Today is raining. It’s a nice, steady rain, something that is needed here in our part of the state. Something that will make that grass grow, yes – and need mowing again soon. But it also makes the flowers grow and bloom and brighten our days. I am glad the sky chose to cry today – happy tears, I’m sure – because yesterday, I would have not viewed them as happy tears and the gray skies would have been suffocating.

I did go out earlier when it was more a sprinkly rain and fill the hummingbird/oriole feeders as well as the thistle seed feeders. All the feeders seem to need it, but those are closer and can be taken in the house or to the lean-to where the seed is stored to be filled. The tray feeders require standing outside. They will wait. Those birds will need to be patient.

Sitting here, I can see one of the feeders the orioles prefer. Never do I see two orioles at one feeder at a time. Is sharing not in their vocabulary? Then again, sharing is not in the Rufous Hummers vocabulary either – at least not in the dominant male’s vocab. I have been seeing a hummer this year that does not look exactly like either a Rufous or a Calliope, but could be either because it lights for such a short second and I do not get a good look. Today I caught a glimpse of it as it lighted, very briefly, on a bush outside my window and it looked a lot like a Xantus’s Hummer – but they have a very limited range and it is much further south says iBird. I hoped it would come back and stay just long enough to capture it with the camera, but it has not.

Yesterday the crabapple trees that were full of buds a day or so ago were full of blooms. I saw the blooms as I went past on the mower, but did not come in and get the camera. If the rain does not knock them all off, maybe tomorrow. The lilacs are bursting open, and I have cut enough to have two bouquets in the house, one next to my morning room chair where I can enjoy their fragrance with my morning coffee. Why is it I love the scent of the flowers, but once bought lilac cologne and thought it dreadful? Perhaps it’s just that nature does a better job than man.

Now to share a gallery of spring – more spring. It’s an ongoing thing. It makes me smile, just as I’m sure it makes you smile.

The newly planted foxglove

The newly planted foxglove

The very first blooms of the weeping cherry we planted two years ago

The very first blooms of the weeping cherry we planted two years ago

The-I've-forgotten-of-these-early-spring flowers that fill the back half of the old wheelbarrow

The-I’ve-forgotten-the-name-of-these-early-spring flowers that fill the back half of the old wheelbarrow

The new hydrangea, looking even brighter

The new hydrangea, looking even brighter

About Carol

I'm me - nothing unusual, just me. Widowed, 2 grown children who are my best friends, 1 dog, retired, loving being retired. I am woman, I am strong.
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12 Responses to Today the Skies Cry, I Smile

  1. Glad you’re feeling better today. Glad you feel you can pour yourself out digitally on the blog and find it helpful. I, too, share your lilac thoughts! I brought a large bunch to work with me this morning: pinks, lights and darks purple. They have invaded the entire office, and I am not sad about that. I, too, have purchased lilac “scented” fragrances in varying forms, but they do not compare to the scent of freshly-picked blooms. Bless you, Carol.


  2. Beautiful, Carol! Both the photos, and your writing–you really do have a way with words. I am so glad you are feeling better today, but I’m glad you can give yourself permission to be sad sometimes. Hugs, Naomi.


  3. Carol – Love the photos. And share your sentiments, “…nature does a better job than man.”


  4. Heather says:

    The friendliness and community of the blogging world often surprises me in such good ways too. I think we tend to find like-minded enough folks and flock together. Anyway, I’m glad you were able to pour out your words and let the sun shine through today, albeit metaphorically while Mama Nature takes her turn at refreshing herself.
    Your hydrangea sure looks like it’s gonna make it! Smell those lilacs for me – I can’t bring any live plants inside because one of my cats eats every green thing she ever came across.


  5. melouisef says:

    Happy to hear


  6. Kathy says:

    Thank goodness for writing. We can share tears and smiles and everything in between…


  7. Joanne says:

    I’m so happy to hear that all of your bloggy friends helped to restore your faith in the fact that there is a lot of good in the world Carol. And thank you so much for letting us know you are feeling so much more Carol-ish today too, I had been thinking about you throughout the day. Your beautiful spring flowers and the little feathered visitors are sure to have helped, the photos and stories you told put a smile on my face too. Sending you a glad-you-are-feeling-happier cyber-hug today. xxx


  8. Dawn says:

    Dear Carol…I began reading this post and immediately realized I had missed something important, so I went and read yesterday’s first. I think of you and your husband quite often, though I don’t always tell you. I think you are both so strong, I’ve wondered how you deal with everything so stoically. Sometimes it must be overwhelming. I’m glad you can share with us when things aren’t so wonderful, aren’t enough. We will try to fill the empty places in order to make it enough again. I know we won’t totally succeed….what you really need we can’t give you….but I’m glad that your friends, in real time and digital helped a little bit. Hugs to you today, even though it’s a better day. Hugs help on good days too.


  9. So glad to hear that today was a better day. How wonderful to have all the spring colours and bird life around. We are in autumn, although with the mild climate, this does not bring unbearable cold, or snow. In fact, for many countries, today would have seemed like a beautiful summers day.
    Hang in there with all you are going through. My thoughts and prayers remain with you.


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  11. Karma says:

    I hope your days continue to improve. Here’s a “virtual” hug {{Carol}} May spring continue to bring you happy moments.


  12. lisa says:

    I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster lately as well. One night it feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders; the next day, my mood is lighter and optimistic. It’s funny how moods are often times tied to what’s going on outside our window. The weather has warmed and I don’t notice that I’m as depressed as I was a month ago. So happy to hear you’re finding some bright spots in life today. Will still continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.


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